* Is This Faith?

I am trying not to think about our adoption much. I am pretty much in denial that within a little over a week, Vietnam/US adoptions will come to a halt. We still have hope that a new agreement can be signed soon, and adoptions would reopen, but there is nothing factual about that hope, and the last time Vietnam closed, it was for quite some time.

I feel ready for our family to grow, but have no peace about trying for a second child the more traditional way. We had no problem getting pregnant with Koen, and I had an amazingly easy pregnancy. But, we believe God has called us to adoption, and we don't want to bring another biological child into our family unless that is God's plan. It is, honestly, hard though to not take matters into our own hands as this wait drags on.